Guard Your Heart

:* let me share to you the thoughts that I have been keeping for years;

When a man and woman have feelings for each other, it does not necessarily need to have formal relationship as bf and gf. While both of you are still busy with your personal life, it's possible that you could make each other as an inspiration. No commitment just a romantic bond. Isn't much sweeter and nicer when you both accomplished everything that you want in life and yet you still end up together?

cc:looking back

TRUE LOVE WAITS

I know that one of the best feeling here on earth is being in love and being loved by someone, Right?  It’s good when someone courted you, ask you for a date and give you flowers during your monthsary or even at your anniversary and everything under the sun that unites the both of you.  You may speculate me for knowing all of these. You may conclude right away.  But babe, don’t be bothered. I am just human. I have eyes to see lovers around me. I have ears to hear those sweetest words a man could ever say to his girlfriend. And definitely I can sense the kilig feelings they have for each other.

i wanna fall for someone who would make 

me feel that JESUS is his number one

Yes naman! Just like any other woman, I can imagine myself being with someone (but that someone is unidentified). His face feature is hazy and fuzzy. But all of his attributes is definitely one of the standards I am looking for. Where on this earth I could find that someone who is so FAITHFUL not just to me but most especially to God? Ahmmm! I am not looking! I am not searching and certainly I am not hurrying. As the song goes like this;

“You can’t hurry love

You just have to wait

They say love don’t come easy

It’s a game of give and take “

This is one of the songs that remind me about taking it slow, letting it go and letting God to make it happen. That is why, I remain single since birth because I am not looking for love instead I allow love to find me. *parang tago – taguan lamang! Just kidding aside*.

For years I have been living in the magical feelings of having crushes. For some, this is so high school but I don’t mind; At least I have crush (hindi ako matatawag na abnormal). And besides, my beloved nanay is not in favor of having boyfriend (only boy na friend!hahahaha) while studying. Cliché! While others are saying “dili mana mapugngan, kung love”. Well, I am the living proof. I was once in like with someone but I know it was purely admiration. I was invited for a date by someone but I repudiated. I was also asked by someone to court me but I refused. (And if you’re going to ask me that someone’s name, well I am very sorry darling; this is something I have to keep for myself). The reason behind all of these is that I have my first love already – my course, Chemical Engineering and I was not even PRAYERFUL about my love life. I only prayed for the goodness of my family, myself and my studies, my friends and countrymen and I didn’t even include my love life because I know God is so good in answering my prayers (baka sasagutin niya agad!Hindi pa ako ready Lord, you know that). How come someone appear asking me for a date yet I am not praying for that someone to come into my life? Destiny? Oh no! I don’t believe in destiny. I refused because I give so much respect to my parents’ decisions as much as they give respect to mine. I don’t want to regret. I don’t want to experience puchu – puchu relationship. I don’t like to change my fb status “to single to in a relationship to in a relationship but it’s complicated to single again” ng basta2x lang (In reality, dalawa lang naman ang status: single o di kaya’y married dbha?). Even if they will allow me, I would rather choose being single until I finish college, I pass the board exam, become an engineer and I am already tired of being single anymore.LOL!

I don’t believe in destiny dahil hindi naman nakasalalay ang aking buhay sa tadhana kung hindi sa Panginoon lamang. All I am wanting is to have a relationship with someone that is truly blessed by God. I claim that if not today then probably in His perfect timing. If God’s will then its God’s will.

If you are single,consider this an advanced greeting!

 Whatever your situation is,remember,LOVE NEVER FAILS. You will either find it or it will find you in His most perfect timing!

Happy Birthday Kim!

Dearest Kim,

            Happy Birthday to you my classmate, my friend and my textmate…hahahahaha I would also like to take hold of this opportunity to thank you for all the goodness you bring into my life. For making my life superb regardless of the many burden and pressure we’re encountering in ChE.  There were enumerable events in my life that you remained so close to me – you comforted me and helped me in coping up with everything. Please, allow me to share some of this.

…you were there

            When I had my first crying moment over NSTP midterm grade (I got a D grade because of our leader’s lame excuses & the rest is history). You accompanied me to the office and you helped me in defending the grade that is supposed to be mine. Though we’re group mates, I wasn’t expecting you to help me because we’re not that super close and at that time you were an accountancy student. Also, I was once intimidated with students from XUHS (now you know). But hey darling, you proved me wrong and you are definitely an exemption Kim. Because of what happened, I realized that I should not cry over NSTP *ulaw ko!hahahahahaha cry2x pa jud wla man diay labot sa QPI*. On the serious note, I realized that you are so friendly pala.

…you were there

            When the sole of my shoe was removed somewhere in Eng’g 2^nd floor. You were the first person I approached and said “Kim, tabangi ko ang tikod sa akong shoe napulas” and without any hesitation you accompanied me to the CR and you said “Gabie naman Jec, dili man maklaro, ayaw lang pahalata”. I was relieved when you told me that though dili jud balance akong paglakaw. Another was, when the heel of my shoe kay gisangit sa katong tabon sa canal2x sa canteen and only to find out na pagstep nako nabilin ang isa ka pares sa akong shoe. I was not embarrassed even if I know people may laugh at me. But instead I ended up laughing because you’re laughing at me too. *no harm.

*sa imo ra jud ko dili maulaw mag – ingun sa mga in.aneh na things kay maski kabalo ko na imu kung kanchawan at least imu ko gatabangan. Kay laaabbb lageh*

…you were there

            When I was broken! I was crying a lot. I was betrayed. I lower down my pride. I forgive but I can’t forget (maybe because the pain is still there and it was hurting me so much). You might forget this but the remembrance of being with you during that trying moment is worth remembering. You stayed with me and you were again the person who helped me in resolving the problem.  I prayed and you prayed me too. Thank you once again kim.

…you were there

            Even though you were disappointed with me because I can’t join some of the JAMC’s events. You always took the effort (I guess some people also do it for me) to invite me and I highly appreciated it because I always feel special.*kilig*. Promise, I felt guilty about it kay mahay – mahay daun ka sa akoa…hahahaha and telling me this line “Jecca, wala lageh ka giadto(*insert your mahay face)?” to the nth time. I am sorry for letting you feel that way. However, I thank you (and the rest of the JAMC) for the great accommodation. I always feel welcomed in joining the Life meeting and the prayer meeting.  You’ve found friends in JAMC and I thank you because you let me know them and became my friends too. I believe that JAMC will take good care of you as much as you take good care of them.  Also, I thank you that for sometimes we shared thoughts about everything in life. Okay Kim, I will GUARD MY HEART! I WILL NOT BE HURRY! Chos…hahahahaha I really don’t know why you’re telling me this (coz you know already my top priorities) but I consider it as a great reminder for myself and for some people who may not know about it.

Baby Kim!

IKAW NA

            Ang tao na mangita ug tag – 5 pesos na snacks (inc. drinks? Kung pwede pa lang). Hey, where on this earth we could find a busog snacks worth 5 pesos? Tagaan ta nalang ka ug 2/3 php para makabuy ta ug saging near metrobank…hahahahaha *bahalag saging basta kay labing* trololol! Ayaw pag – inot oie basta pagkaon…

            Ang tao na grave kung malate…*sorry kim*. Believe ko sa imung confidence level kung malate…You always have the guts to enter the classroom. J No Guts! No Glory! Nyahahahahaha

            Ang tao na nay instik eyes. Hahahahaha. This causes other people to bully you. Like they’re telling you always na “Cgeh lang ug katulog; Ayaw’g katulog Kim “. Mind you, your eyes are so nice and cute to be mistaken. * I am a liar* hahaahahaha Just kidding aside J

Ikaw na! Ikaw na KIMBERLY ANN A. MA! Happy 21^st Birthday. I wish you nothing but only the best in everything. I wish you good health, guidance and strength from Above. You are one of my favorite classmate. You are one of the people I trusted because I know that you are so kind, humble, so genuine and faithful. I thank God upon every remembrance of you J Have a good one and God bless your birthday

Kay LaAb lageh,

Jecca Beyd

Therefore, I am NOT ELIZABETH

When I started blogging, I thought of writing on the subject of the origin of my beautiful name (of course). But I had complexity on composing the entry since I cannot find any pleasant title for the blog. If you can only check my draft box, you’ll find there a “did you know what?” – a fleeting title and I guess parang trivia lang ang dating…’di ko type.

“Hello World, Hello Philippines” my name is 

LORAINE JECCA.

However, when I started my on – the – job – training (OJT), one of my superior incidentally spoke the name Elizabeth when his co – worker asked my name. I didn’t know where on the four corners of the laboratory he got it (even himself cannot figure it out where he got!LOL!). Actually, it sounds so side – splitting every time they call me “Beth or Elizabeth”.  Perhaps because in reality, the name is so sacred…so biblical! And calling me Elizabeth is an understatement.

The happening gave me motivation to continue the blog I have started three months ago. I just want to share something about the source of my given name.  In school, few of my classmates knew it and only those who really questioned me where did my dear parents have my name. Oooppps! I remember one event in my life – THE RETREAT where I gain so much coolness to share the meaning or the origin of my given name. Thank you to the facilitator who initiated the activity.

HERE’S THE CATCH!

My dearly loved Nanay is the only person (I knew in the family) who could unquestionably answer if anyone asks regarding my given name. Out of curiosity, I asked her the meaning of my name way back high school but she conferred me the origin 

For the reason that, I was named after my pretty lola LORENZA ZAMAYLA – TAKIANG (as we fondly call her Lola Inday). My pretty Lola is definitely pretty…hahahahaha J . Many said that my sister Limya looks like my lola that is why she is also given a petname Inday. But (I think) I was the luckiest female grandchild to be named after her. My name was supposed to be LAURENCE according to nanay but someone helped her realized that it is a boy’s name. So it was change to LORAINE meaning --------------

Lorraine \l(o)-rrai-ne\ as a girl's name is pronounced lor-AYN. It is of French origin, and the meaning of Lorraine is "from Lorraine". Name of the province in France (where Joan of Arccame from) and a family name of French royalty. Also an elaboration of Lora, or possibly derived from Laura (Latin) "laurel". See also Lorena. Actress Laraine Newman.Lorraine has 13 variant forms: Laraine, Larayne, Laurraine, Leraine, Lerayne, Lorain, Loraina,Loraine, Lorayne, Lori, Lorine, Lorraina and Lorrayne.

*I took the effort of finding the meaning of this name.Super Thanks to  thinkbabynames.

my grandparents...this is the only picture I have <3

The name Jecca is not visible on English (US) dictionary that is why when I type my second given name on MS – Word program it seems to be wrong – spelled. Thus, the name Jecca has no equivalent meaning. How sad L but knowing its origin is a bliss. Do you know JOKO DIAZ click here? What connects? Well, I was also named after him because according to my nanay he was so sikat when I was born. Really? Hahahahaha J. So I conclude, JECCA is an invented name. Logically, JOKO is for male and JECCA is for female. So kung ipinanganak akong lalaki siguro my name is LAURENCE JOKO!Incredible!nyahahaha just for laughs! J 

I am LORAINE JECCA…not

Lorraine Jecca

Loraine Jeca

Jecca Loraine

Jecca Lorraine

This is a big memento (to all the people) most especially to my classmates who always commit the same mistake of spelling my name.* As much as I wanted to named names I rather keep it to myself in order to protect the reputation of my dearest friends…you know who you are Jhmmmm!hahahahha choz

Therefore, I am not Elizabeth.

                 

When VANITY strikes!

I am not busy! I am not under pressure! I am not doing anything…This is life! This is me when relaxing and enjoying the free time.  For sometimes, it’s really boring! I only watch tv from day to night. And when I don’t have anything to do, me just SLEEP and MORE SLEEP! But I find time looking through the pictures during the Manila trip; I mean the ChE summit thing. Oh No! I discover that I have lots of solo photos anywhere. This is not me! I swear! Hahahahahaha J I am not absolutely vain. I love to have group pictures rather than solo one. But when I reached Manila I love to take pictures all alone nah. I love to see myself all alone in the panoramic view. Soshal! nyahaahahahaha

WOW! Eastwood is beautiful at night. I don’t know how it looks during day time. 

These photos were taken during the Seminar at UP – Diliman Theatre. 
I am holding the summit ID and the kit. 

This is me when I am sleepy. Promise! The seminar was kinda boring. 

So I decided to make fun of myself.hahahahaha :p

These photos were taken by Diana, my classmate. – At UP – Diliman Engineering Buidling

At SM – Mall of Asia

THIS IS NOT ME! PLEASE BEAR WITH ME 

(Congrats) GRADUATE NAKA?

When people ask me with this question, I always find myself being trap for years (for 2 years I guess).Okay fine! I can’t blame them for asking the same question over and over and over again. I really don’t know what they’re thinking about me but of course I need to defend myself and to reveal the truth behind it…hahahahaha J

               

   Graduate naka?

                Answer #1: Wala pa! 5 years man gud akong course.

                Answer #2: I’m still doing my proposal for thesis (fyps)

                Answer #3: Nabagsak man gud ko ug subject atong 3^rd year! L

My answers vary right? But mind you darling, it was hurting on my part giving those answers knowing that SOME might don’t understand what I am saying and what I am trying to let them know. Not just hurting but also annoying! PROMISE! If and only if I could gather people for a round – table discussion just to entertain their queries and questions about this controversial one, WHY NOT? But sorry, my time is so precious to spend for this not – so – important matter. I presume there are lots of things to mind than this.

YES! I am enrolled in a 5 – year program, Bachelor of Science in Chemical Engineering. With great   humility, I am now on my 4^th year and I thank God for guiding me all through this years. Imagine! I never thought of this course when I was on my secondary education and all I want to be is to become a chemist/pharmacist someday but chance had come my way. I am a recipient of St. Francis Xavier Scholarship but the scholarship is exclusive only for education program (which I indicated during the exam). Blame on me! Unfortunately, the scholarship is non – transferrable. So I declined and it took me months to decide again what course to take up in college.

I chose chemical engineering as my course because I want to make a difference. That’s the only reasonable thing I know aside from putting “Engr.” to my beloved name. My clan is so big, composed of educators, businessmen, doctors, lawyers and only few are engineers (I guess two or three and none of them came from Celedonio – Lorenza Bade).  So, I want to be the first female chemical engineer in our clan.

My first two years in the ChE program was not that hard compare to what I experienced during my 3^rd and 4^th year. But one thing is for sure, you’ll never learn to appreciate life without the applications of chemistry, the law of physics and mathematics and so let me include as well the super demanding minor subjects. But when I reached my 3^rd year, I experienced so much depression. I failed in a “major major” subject – ChE 10. That failure was unjustifiable. Yes, I have also lapses but I put the blame to our dearest instructor. I could not find any reason why she failed us (7 of us failed in the said subject). She didn’t even give us seat works and assignments because SHE IS ALWAYS ABSENT IN CLASS! Mas daghan pa iyang absent kaysa sa iyang present. After that event, Gitaga ko siya sa bato! Swear! She was the first teacher who really made me cry to the max. Hanep! Because of that failure I have to spend another year in ChE program…instead of making it 5, it will be now 6. For every one false move is equivalent to one year extension.

My failure gave me so much problem and stress. I have to bear with the new curriculum and so I need to undergo internal credits with all of the subjects I have taken already plus I need to enroll myself to subjects I have not yet taken like psychology and ChE 01. It was not easy since the burden is getting bigger. At the same time, it took me months to adjust with the new environment (I mean new blockmates and classmates). Honest to goodness, before, I find it hard to adjust with my new blockmates. They’re definitely smart and some are competitive. They’re ONCE INTIMIDATING! But I thank the Lord for meeting new group of people. Some of them really challenge me. Some of them turn out to be my little sisters and brothers which I never had. Some of them became my inspiration and motivation. Some of them happened to be my close friends and good confidant.  Our personalities do differ of course Lahi lahi bya ang tao. But I can surely attest that these people are part of every passing marks and happiness I encountered. They say “Happiness is a choice” YES! Exactly true! It is in ChE where I find total happiness in life. Guys, I tell you…lisud keu ang chem.eng’g but that feeling when you experience so much pressure and tension in everything yet at the end of the day you find yourself SMILING & LAUGHING with your classmates over everything that had happened to you. That is HAPPINESS! Lesson learned: Do not let your emotions over ruled you. Unsa na lang kung lisud na galing tanan, mag.paSAD2x pa ka. Life is beautiful so smileJ.

However, I already spent 5 years in the College of Engineering. But hey! I am still studying and I knew that. It was really tough for me to spend another year knowing that my original block mates had just newly graduated after 5 years of hard work and suffering. I admit, I was so resentful and I pity myself for not making it. I know people in our place, mostly my relatives and my high school classmates are expecting me to graduate this march because they know that I am a good student. But fate is leading me to somewhere, which I truly believe it is better than all of these that are happening to me. I truly believe that God’s plan is greater and better than my plan. So, I put my trust to Him and surrender my thoughts, my will and my decisions in life. In His time, I will certainly declare a DEFINITE & CONCRETE ANSWER to this question.

An Open Letter

Dear ChE graduates,

You did it! Now it’s all over, or it’s all beginning depending on which way you look at it. I am happy seeing all of you enjoying the SUCCESS you truly deserve and the ACHIEVEMENT you have truly earned.  You have chosen a tough course. Nevertheless, I believe you are tougher and sooner or later, all of you will become extraordinary CHEMICAL ENGINEERS.

To my original blockmates:

THANK YOU BIG TIME! Thank you so much for bringing wonderful moments into my life. You are such an inspiration and I will surely treasure all of these. Like we used to jump together every photo shoot, we eat and chit – chat together every lunch time, we sleep together in the library and we laugh together over Sarah G’s visit at ororama. I can still remember when some of us ran away towards the establishment just to see the celebrity.

From this moment another chapter of your life has begun and I am confident that you will continue to succeed in life. I don’t wish you to succeed in ALL that will be too boring…hahahahaha. But I wish you to succeed in the most important things in life. Remember, try not to lose FRIENDS you gain over the years at school since we are and we will be the most valuable friends ever.

                

May God continue to bless you and your abilities.

CONGRATULATIONS and  GOOD LUCK to all of you J

Love,

Jecca Beyd