When people ask me with this
question, I always find myself being trap for years (for 2 years I guess).Okay
fine! I can’t blame them for asking the same question over and over and over
again. I really don’t know what they’re thinking about me but of course I need
to defend myself and to reveal the truth behind it…hahahahaha J
Answer #1: Wala
pa! 5 years man gud akong course.
Answer #2: I’m
still doing my proposal for thesis (fyps)
Answer #3:
Nabagsak man gud ko ug subject atong 3rd year! L
My answers vary right? But mind
you darling, it was hurting on my part giving those answers knowing that SOME
might don’t understand what I am saying and what I am trying to let them know.
Not just hurting but also annoying! PROMISE! If and only if I could gather
people for a round – table discussion just to entertain their queries and
questions about this controversial one, WHY NOT? But sorry, my time is so
precious to spend for this not – so – important matter. I presume there are
lots of things to mind than this.
YES! I am enrolled in a 5 – year
program, Bachelor of Science in Chemical Engineering. With great humility, I am now on my 4th year
and I thank God for guiding me all through this years. Imagine! I never thought
of this course when I was on my secondary education and all I want to be is to
become a chemist/pharmacist someday but chance had come my way. I am a
recipient of St. Francis Xavier Scholarship but the scholarship is exclusive
only for education program (which I indicated during the exam). Blame on me! Unfortunately,
the scholarship is non – transferrable. So I declined and it took me months to
decide again what course to take up in college.
I chose chemical engineering as
my course because I want to make a
difference. That’s the only reasonable thing I know aside from putting
“Engr.” to my beloved name. My clan is so big, composed of educators,
businessmen, doctors, lawyers and only few are engineers (I guess two or three
and none of them came from Celedonio – Lorenza Bade). So, I want to be the first female chemical
engineer in our clan.
My first two years in the ChE
program was not that hard compare to what I experienced during my 3rd
and 4th year. But one thing is for sure, you’ll never learn to
appreciate life without the applications of chemistry, the law of physics and
mathematics and so let me include as well the super demanding minor subjects.
But when I reached my 3rd year, I experienced so much depression. I
failed in a “major major” subject – ChE 10. That failure was unjustifiable.
Yes, I have also lapses but I put the blame to our dearest instructor. I could
not find any reason why she failed us (7 of us failed in the said subject). She
didn’t even give us seat works and assignments because SHE IS ALWAYS ABSENT IN
CLASS! Mas daghan pa iyang absent kaysa
sa iyang present. After that event, Gitaga
ko siya sa bato! Swear! She was the first teacher who really made me cry to
the max. Hanep! Because of that failure I have to spend another year in ChE
program…instead of making it 5, it will be now 6. For every one false move is
equivalent to one year extension.
My failure gave me so much
problem and stress. I have to bear with the new curriculum and so I need to
undergo internal credits with all of the subjects I have taken already plus I
need to enroll myself to subjects I have not yet taken like psychology and ChE
01. It was not easy since the burden is getting bigger. At the same time, it
took me months to adjust with the new environment (I mean new blockmates and
classmates). Honest to goodness, before, I find it hard to adjust with my new
blockmates. They’re definitely smart and some are competitive. They’re ONCE
INTIMIDATING! But I thank the Lord for meeting new group of people. Some of
them really challenge me. Some of them turn out to be my little sisters and
brothers which I never had. Some of them became my inspiration and motivation.
Some of them happened to be my close friends and good confidant. Our personalities do differ of course Lahi lahi bya ang tao. But I can surely
attest that these people are part of every passing marks and happiness I
encountered. They say “Happiness is a choice” YES! Exactly true! It is in ChE
where I find total happiness in life. Guys, I tell you…lisud keu ang chem.eng’g but that
feeling when you experience so much pressure and tension in everything yet at
the end of the day you find yourself SMILING & LAUGHING with your
classmates over everything that had happened to you. That is HAPPINESS! Lesson
learned: Do not let your emotions over ruled you. Unsa na lang kung lisud na galing tanan, mag.paSAD2x pa ka. Life is
beautiful so smileJ.
However, I already spent 5 years
in the College of Engineering. But hey! I am still studying and I knew that. It
was really tough for me to spend another year knowing that my original block
mates had just newly graduated after 5 years of hard work and suffering. I
admit, I was so resentful and I pity myself for not making it. I know people in
our place, mostly my relatives and my high school classmates are expecting me
to graduate this march because they know that I am a good student. But fate is
leading me to somewhere, which I truly believe it is better than all of these
that are happening to me. I truly believe that God’s plan is greater and better
than my plan. So, I put my trust to Him and surrender my thoughts, my will and
my decisions in life. In His time, I will certainly declare a DEFINITE &
CONCRETE ANSWER to this question.
